I wish I was able to pinpoint exactly what stressors weighed most heavily on me over the past few days: it could be worries about my family, for their health and wellness; it could be the ongoing search for a better job, while at the same time researching, planning, developing and refining ideas for my own company; it could be a general anxiety over the unknown, which tends to rear it’s grotesque, disfigured visage now and then.
It could be none of the above. It could be the protector and provider in me, tired of swimming in this purgatory of being able to provide but so much; the forces of nature are strong, indeed.
Either way, I’ve been feeling pretty unsure of myself, of my ability to succeed. Then I realized I’d been watching too much tv; all the news about the economy suffering and businesses failing. I made quick work of turning that motor-mouthed harpy off, and reassured myself that the more I put into my preparation, the more I’ll get from it. My diligence will be the shining sun, and my ever-growing business skills the abilities that thrive under the light of that fiery star.
Ive been deep in the books for the past eight hours or so, readdressing every idea I’ve had so far. Recently I’ve asked for people to reach out to me, but the results of that have shown me I’ve got to reach out to them, directly. I’ve arranged meetings with reps from my local chamber of commerce and the business arm of my bank, for guidance if nothing more.
Lastly I reminded myself that progress is motivating, hugely motivating to me. Keep pushing, keep moving forward, keep learning.
I had this idea for an A/V accompaniment to my business plan once I have it complete and ready to pitch. I wonder how this would go.
oh, hello, internet!