During the interim my ideas have been changing: not quite evolving, but shifting in focus. I think for the time being its something I’ve got to do, at least as a plan, while I am where I am. A shelter-in-place approach, I guess, while the idea of location remains uncertain. The double-edged blade comes into the mix in the form of a great new job; I’ll be making enough to really start investing capital, but for how long do I stay?
A part of me needs the gratification and feeling of fulfillment of making big strides in turning my plan into real income. Other parts are more calculating, cautious, and simply uncertain. I think once I obtain the first, most important piece of this- the first car- I’ll settle a bit; I’ll really get things moving; I’ll definitely consider coming out of the shelter and getting started, and then consider whether or not moving is an option or the option.
Before anything really happens…….gotta have the money.
I received an email this morning that let me to a really neat looking Infographic. It was filled with statistics about the habits of wealthy people. If I were asked about the details, I could probably recall one or two of those stats; the numbers are lost on me, but they’re unimportant to me anyway (not to mention subjective and likely out of context). What did stick to my ribs was the idea; the concept that these successful people, in whatever it is that they found that success, have certain ways. Of course there are exceptions, but there’s also the rule.
In short order I came to realize that in wanting to become a business owner, I’ve only sought to change my profession, my knowledge base, my skillset, and that I would achieve my goals, which is entirely possible. However I wonder what I would achieve if I altered my habits. I suppose they’re generally good; I get lots of exercise, I eat well for the most part (my better half is a vegetarian, but I suffer from a severe sweet tooth), and I read when the mood strikes me. But those I’m looking to follow the path of are a bit different. They don’t watch much tv. They track their goal-setting progresses in a much more detailed and organized manner. Many are involved in volunteering endeavors.
These are all things I could do better. I watch about twenty percent of the tv I used to; unfortunately, it’s basketball season. I kept very detailed logs when I was a gym rat; I think, more than anything else, it was another thing to distract me from the realities I was surrounded with during my combat deployment. I’ll have to look into community opportunities I can participate in; I remember volunteering as a kid, and it was always so much fun. I’m also going to get my Spanish back to the high levels of fluency I once had. Bilingual certainly can’t hurt.
This is all an intensive undertaking, but I’ve enjoyed the challenges I’ve met so far, and look forward to those in the future.
I wish I was able to pinpoint exactly what stressors weighed most heavily on me over the past few days: it could be worries about my family, for their health and wellness; it could be the ongoing search for a better job, while at the same time researching, planning, developing and refining ideas for my own company; it could be a general anxiety over the unknown, which tends to rear it’s grotesque, disfigured visage now and then.
It could be none of the above. It could be the protector and provider in me, tired of swimming in this purgatory of being able to provide but so much; the forces of nature are strong, indeed.
Either way, I’ve been feeling pretty unsure of myself, of my ability to succeed. Then I realized I’d been watching too much tv; all the news about the economy suffering and businesses failing. I made quick work of turning that motor-mouthed harpy off, and reassured myself that the more I put into my preparation, the more I’ll get from it. My diligence will be the shining sun, and my ever-growing business skills the abilities that thrive under the light of that fiery star.
Ive been deep in the books for the past eight hours or so, readdressing every idea I’ve had so far. Recently I’ve asked for people to reach out to me, but the results of that have shown me I’ve got to reach out to them, directly. I’ve arranged meetings with reps from my local chamber of commerce and the business arm of my bank, for guidance if nothing more.
Lastly I reminded myself that progress is motivating, hugely motivating to me. Keep pushing, keep moving forward, keep learning.
I had this idea for an A/V accompaniment to my business plan once I have it complete and ready to pitch. I wonder how this would go.
oh, hello, internet!