During the interim my ideas have been changing: not quite evolving, but shifting in focus. I think for the time being its something I’ve got to do, at least as a plan, while I am where I am. A shelter-in-place approach, I guess, while the idea of location remains uncertain. The double-edged blade comes into the mix in the form of a great new job; I’ll be making enough to really start investing capital, but for how long do I stay?
A part of me needs the gratification and feeling of fulfillment of making big strides in turning my plan into real income. Other parts are more calculating, cautious, and simply uncertain. I think once I obtain the first, most important piece of this- the first car- I’ll settle a bit; I’ll really get things moving; I’ll definitely consider coming out of the shelter and getting started, and then consider whether or not moving is an option or the option.
Before anything really happens…….gotta have the money.
I wish I was able to pinpoint exactly what stressors weighed most heavily on me over the past few days: it could be worries about my family, for their health and wellness; it could be the ongoing search for a better job, while at the same time researching, planning, developing and refining ideas for my own company; it could be a general anxiety over the unknown, which tends to rear it’s grotesque, disfigured visage now and then.
It could be none of the above. It could be the protector and provider in me, tired of swimming in this purgatory of being able to provide but so much; the forces of nature are strong, indeed.
Either way, I’ve been feeling pretty unsure of myself, of my ability to succeed. Then I realized I’d been watching too much tv; all the news about the economy suffering and businesses failing. I made quick work of turning that motor-mouthed harpy off, and reassured myself that the more I put into my preparation, the more I’ll get from it. My diligence will be the shining sun, and my ever-growing business skills the abilities that thrive under the light of that fiery star.
Ive been deep in the books for the past eight hours or so, readdressing every idea I’ve had so far. Recently I’ve asked for people to reach out to me, but the results of that have shown me I’ve got to reach out to them, directly. I’ve arranged meetings with reps from my local chamber of commerce and the business arm of my bank, for guidance if nothing more.
Lastly I reminded myself that progress is motivating, hugely motivating to me. Keep pushing, keep moving forward, keep learning.
I had this idea for an A/V accompaniment to my business plan once I have it complete and ready to pitch. I wonder how this would go.
oh, hello, internet!
I’d firstly like to thank you readers for coming on board; whether it’s for this blog or my other, I am grateful and hope to keep you.
The work week has been good and busy; but I think I’ve hit wall in my business plan building. What’s needed is an experienced eye, to help me refine my broad strokes into a proposal that would actually do well.
Matter of fact, perhaps it would be a good idea to correspond with a banker. I’d like to think they would be willing to help me build it the way they need it built to approve me; hell, I’ve put feelers out so many other places and they’re not giving me any bites, so any guidance at all only serves to help me.
Im heading to my hometown this weekend, and my good friend Eric is a business owner. He would be so glad to have me pick his brain; I’ve always had a feeling he thought I was operating below my potential. He’s so smart, business-minded. Certainly someone I’d appreciate having on my team.
So i’ll take my plan to him, confident he’ll point me in the right direction.
I suddenly don’t feel so stagnant anymore. Small victories.